Forgetting your phone is hard as fuck

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. I don’t have a book ;A;
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch? a computer mouse
3. Before you started this survey, what were you doing? Waiting for my dad to bring my phone to work OTL
4. What is the last thing you watched on TV? I forgot :I
5. Without looking, guess what time it is 10-ish? AM
6. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 10:26 AM
7. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Radio
8. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? 2 hours ago. Commuting to work
9. Did you dream last night? I think I did
10. Do you remember your dreams? Hellz yeah!
11. When did you last laugh? An hour ago?
12. Do you remember why / at what? talking to my colleagues about music and shitting
13. What is on the walls of the room you are in? Art
14. Seen anything weird lately? Myself
15. What do you think of this quiz? Idk
16. What is the last film you saw? Jupiter Ascending?
17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Oh oh oh! Canada! or New Zealand! Or any of the nordic countries like Sweden or Denmark or Iceland XD
18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? A fucking lot
19. Tell me something about you that most people don’t know. I don’t know what they know :I
20. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? Kill all the Jejes
21. Do you like to dance? If it’s exercise then yeah
22. Would you ever consider living abroad? Yes please! Take me away ;A;
23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams? No ._.
24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone? Haneh
25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Code Geass
26. Last time you swam in a pool? years ago?
27. Type of music you like most? A lot
28. Type of music you dislike most? Few
29. Are you listening to music right now? Yeah
30. What color is your bedroom carpet? My bedroom floor is wood
31. If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do? Renovate everything!
32. What was the last thing you bought? Beef lasagna
33. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike? Yes!! Thank you Xave!
34. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? Yes!!
35. Do you have a garden? I wish :<
36. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Yes?
37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? I wonder if I have abs yet
38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be? OMG Neil deGrasse Tyson or Bill Nye please for science stuff, Stephen Colbert for LotR conversations, Neil Gaiman for comic book conversations
39. Who sent the last text message you received? Dad. It said, “I’ll bring it later. I haven’t pooped yet”
40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? can’t decide between bookstore or fitness store. If I was asked this years ago it would definitely be the bookstore
41. What time is bed time? 10 to 11 ish?
42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? Nein
43. How many tattoos do you have? 0
44. If you don’t have any, have you ever thought of getting one? Yes!!
45. What did you do for your last birthday?  I forgot o.o
46. Do you carry a donor card? Yeah
47. Who was the last person you ate dinner with? Alexis and Janella
48. Is the glass half empty or half full? of what?
49. What’s the farthest-away place you’ve been? Japan
50. When’s the last time you ate a homegrown tomato? when I was kid when my grandpa was still alive.
51. Have you ever won a trophy? Yeah
52. Are you a good cook? I don’t think so XD
53. Do you know how to pump your own gas? We’re not allowed to do that here :I
54. If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be? Carl Sagan!!
55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school? Yeah from NUrsery to HIghschool
56. Do you touch-type? I don’t know
57. What’s under your bed? Old notebooks and other stash of gunk I put on my face
58. Do you believe in love at first sight? Probably?
59. Think fast, what do you like right now? Corn
60. Where were you on Valentine’s day? Home
61. What time do you get up? 6:15 to 6:30 on Weekdays; whenever the hell I want on Saturday; 8:00 on Sundays if I have to go to church
62. What was the name of your first pet? KC
63. Who is the second to last person to call you? Izzy
64. Is there anything going on this weekend? Idk
65. How are you feeling right now? Alright, I guess
66. What do you think about the most? Space travel
67. What time do you get up in the morning? Didn’t I answer this already? =_=
68. If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people? I’m not sure o.o
69. Who would you tell first? My parents?
70. What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema? I forgot :I
71. Do you sing in the shower? Yeah
72. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? I answered this already
73. What do you do most when you are bored? Think of something to do
74. What do you do for a living?  I write
75. Do you love your job? Eh
76. What did you want to be when you grew up? An archaeologist or anthropologist
77. If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be? I want to work in the social sciences field or NASA OwO
78. Which came first the chicken or the egg? The egg
79. How many keys on your key ring? 3
80. Where would you retire to? Can I please retire in New Zealand so I can frolic in the lands on the Hobbits?
81. What kind of car do you drive? A Honda
82. What are your best physical features? Uhhhh my hair?
83. What are your best characteristics? My friends say I’m funny :I
84. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go? New Zealand!
85. What kind of books do you like to read? Whatever catches my fancy
86. Where would you want to retire to? Why do the questions keep repeating =_=
87. What is your favorite time of the day? Night
88. Where did you grow up? Batangas and Manila
89. How far away from your birthplace do you live now? Not far
90. What are you reading now? This meme
91. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Night owl
92. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? No XD
93. Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows? Yeah
94. Do you have pets? Yeah
95. How many rings before you answer the phone? Once or twice
96. What is your best childhood memory? When I thought I saw an alien
97. What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? This and at a call center
98. Any new and exciting things that you would like to share? *shrugs*
99. What is most important in life? nothing
100. What Inspires You? Death

*Old people accuse us that this generation have become so dependent on modern technology and I do not disagree with them. I just forgot my phone and I went into a frenzy XD

Musings #2

Playing with Fire – The Lover Drawing by Tara Mcpherson

 

Punched a wall
Bruised my hand
Played with fire
Burned my hair
Asked a question
Got an answer

I asked for it.
I’m a masochist. Like, 5ever.

(to be continued)

No Weigh May!!

Since I begun my “weight loss/fitness” journey, I’ve been weighing myself constantly–well every Monday. In the mornings. Right after I wake up and before I eat breakfast I make a dash for the scale in case I forget (groggy, confused brain).

Technically, May started last week and I just weighed myself this morning but I just found out about No Weigh May 5 minutes ago! I’m doing this challenge. I am so doing this challenge!

If anyone else wants to do it here’s what you need to do:

1. Do not measure your weight using a scale
2. Do not measure your body parts using a tape measure
3. Do not use a body fat analyzer
4. No counting of calories; in or out
5. ONLY track workouts and food intake by writing it down or something.

I’m pretty confident doing this. I think I mostly know how much I need to eat  (less than 1,200 calories for my caloric deficit).

I’m also thinking of switching gyms. The gym I’m at maybe extremely cheap (only PHP 60.00 and 5 minutes away from my house, yo!) but it lacks a trainer and other stuff I think I need. I found one and sometime this week I’m planning to make a visit to inquire.

I’m really serious about my fitness now, guys! My goal used to be thin but now I really want to be strong and flexible (I do Yoga at home, woot!). Still not confident to post any progress pics but probably one day when I get the body and strength I want.

Musings #1

Plain white, dirt streaks
Eyes blurred, light glares
Tear drops and chamomile tea
I lost my glasses
So so alone

Following Your Bliss: When it’s not as easy as it sounds

Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.

No offense to you Mr. Campbell but what if I don’t know what my bliss is? What if I don’t ever find my bliss? I have one thing I cling to but what I feel is not the bliss that destroys the walls and replaces them with doors. Instead, I can feel the walls slowly closing in on me; the door’s bolted from the outside and offers me no hope of escaping. On some days, I try to push back the walls but they come back angrier and what’s left now is less space than what I had before. It won’t be long until I’m completely suffocated and helpless. I take that back. I’m already helpless.

I envy the people who found their bliss easily: the travelers, the writers, the artists, world changers, ground-breakers, trend-setters. They must have known what their bliss was and made sacrifices to achieve them. But at what cost? What have they given up for their bliss? Did they ever got it back?

I want to find my bliss; to stand at the doorway and welcome everyone who wants to enter and share it with me. I want to find my bliss but I’m scared to death of letting things go because I might not get them back. I want to find my bliss but I’m afraid I’ll lose sight of the people around me. I might turn into something I hate.

I want to find my bliss but I’m afraid of what I need to do.

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Joseph Campbell is one of the most influential people in my life. He thought me about the power of myth and the hero’s journey and the monomyth (my favorite); his works in comparative mythology and comparative religion have helped me let go of my attachment to my faith. He was the one who opened my eyes to many things, he’s the biggest influence in my agnosticism and my reason to pursue Anthropology (Mike Rugnetta’s here too!).

I haven’t met him but we learned about him in passing alongside Roland Barthes during uni. We didn’t really delve into studying about him so I don’t really recall what got me interested but a few weeks after I was buying all of his books and watching his documentary.

Sad Little Update

I can’t write on my blog because I’ve been transcribing a press conference and an interview for 57 million years! Wut? Torture!

What I Realized When Looking at Children

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My friends and I attended our friend’s baby’s christening and what I realized was that I liked playing with babies. I like hanging out with them, I get so gigil when I’m near them like how I get when I’m near puppies, but I wouldn’t want to have one of my own.

You know how some parents only like their own children but have a strong aversion to kids who aren’t theirs? (I’m talking to you Louis C.K.) I think I’m the opposite.

A few days ago I was reading something in Thought Catalog (here’s the link) and I pretty much found myself saying, “yes, exactly!” to pretty much everything the writer had written. I especially agreed with this part:

Generally speaking, if your kid is a little shit, it’s not helping anyone, and that’s probably on you. And I really think the world has enough little shits.

I know that there are already an abundance of little shits in the world and I don’t want to contribute to that. I was once a little shit, myself. When I was a child, we had maids (I swear we’re not rich) and most of them do not last for more than two months–except for this one maid I really loved because she didn’t pull my hair or made me kneel, or slapped me when I was being unruly. Ok, so maybe I was just retaliating but my parents have said countless times that I was a little monster.

So when I imagine taking care of a dozen me I get aversive of the responsibility. But then again, what if I don’t? What if my child can become someone great, not a little shit, and someone who can probably contribute a great deal in our lifetime or future generations? I’m mulling over whether I really want children or not because of that possibility.

There is, however, another possibility: the possibility of really raising a shitty kid. We have to agree that it isn’t all nurture but also the nature surrounding the child’s development. Take my brother and I, for example. Our parents are religious people. They’re sort of progressive but they’re still religious. We always go to church; I once wished to become a nun; when I was little up until 1st or 2nd year of college, I prayed 3 times a day and feared that something bad would happen to me if I didn’t. I was pretty much set to be a religious nut then Literature happened, Philosophy happened, a lot of things happened that were beyond my parents’ control that shaped my views on religion. My brother and I are now agnostics.

The point is, you won’t have any idea what’s going to happen to your children. And I have great respect for parents or for people who decided that their calling is to be a parent. That’s a really big responsibility and I salute your courage. But just like the author, I don’t think I’m being selfish. I guess I’m already decided that I’ll just travel instead of have a baby.

I think in the end, we’re just choosing whatever makes us happy. No pressure, no gender roles, and no guilt.